You Know You Love Me

I love whenever takes a break from posting, they apologize for neglecting their blog. I don’t apologize for neglecting whatever short story I’m working on. I don’t apologize for forgetting about my cherished blue notebooks for over a year or for waiting until the last possible second to write a paper. (Well, when I had papers to write.) I don’t really apologize for much of anything, to be honest. I’m still trying to figure out if that’s a good thing or not.

My move home has been rocky. I find myself in my old town, more weekends than not. But I always have an excuse. A friend’s husband passed away! Homecoming was always on the agenda for months! A friend needed a weekend to forget how he couldn’t pheasant hunt opening weekend! Halloween, also always on the agenda! Another friend will be in a play on campus in a month! Then December graduation! Then New Years! Then…something else will come up!

I’m optimistic it will get better after my friends start graduating and moving on with their lives. Until then, I think I’m just doomed to feel like a fish out of water. It is hard to adopt a new life when everyone I love is still living the life I loved, so much for so long. Jealousy is definitely a factor here, which is interesting because they’re all jealous of me, being gone. Grass is always greener.

So what has made my transition into adulthood a little easier? A few things.

I’m getting the chance to read books I never read while I was in school, since they weren’t on a syllabus somewhere. I’ve noticed several of the books on my reading list have movies based on them: “The Devil Wears Prada”, “P.S. I Love You” (which…ew, not a great book – feels like something I wrote in junior high), “Stardust”, “The Secret Life of Bees”, it goes on and on.

SNL. The presidential election. They sort of go hand in hand. On a day when I’m still torn on who I’m going to vote for president (I’ve got roughly an hour and ten minutes to decide or else leave that question blank), Tina Fey makes a girl giggle. Sarah Palin, not so much. Then again, Tina Fey has always made a girl giggle, especially on her old Weekend Updates with Jimmy Fallon. I miss me some Jimmy.

Halloween was peaceful, even though I spent it downtown, dressed up like Daisy Duke, which you think would inspire anything but peacefulness. Let’s just say that if Halloween goes well, the rest of the winter will. We’ll count that as a sign. (Don’t ask.)

Last but not least, “Gossip Girl”. It is this delightfully insane show on the CW from the folks who created “The O.C.” and my complete love of Seth Cohen (even in season 2) has never been a secret. GG takes place in NYC, with the bitchiest little girls you can imagine, but I love it. I can’t stop watching. Josh Schwartz may be one of my favorite TV people of all time. And coming up against Peter Berg, (FNL – Clear eyes, full hearts, can’t lose!) that’s saying something. Blair and Chuck rock my world.

Also, almost every time I talk to a friend, he always asks me what Gossip Girl had to say today. You know you love me, XOXO. Hahaha.